I really want to thank you for your courage to be vulnerable; it's never an easy thing to do but it's always worth it when you find that other people can find value and relatability in what you've shared.

These aren't easy things to admit; and even if we "know" that our worth and value shouldn't be limited to whether or not we bear a child, it's very hard not to have any fixation or negative feelings when we find that it might not be part of our reality at all. Adoption is a goal that I have later in life, but there's a reason why I call it a 'goal'. As you said, adoption (along with surrogates, infertility treatments, etc.) are very expensive routes. I know it can only happen if my husband and I are dedicated to keeping our finances straight for that. "I'm not ruling out either of these options, but I resent the apparent fact that they are my only choices" < this is such a truthful statement that I don't think a lot of people are willing to say aloud because they believe it "sounds wrong". But these are real, valid feelings.

I'm definitely praying that you can keep your peace, no matter what the outcome. Thanks again for sharing <3